9w0d

I'm not so sure I really am 9w0d. I think I'm really 8w6d. When I had my last appointment at the fertility clinic, they gave me a copy of all of my bloodwork and ultrasounds up until now to review with my OB. I noticed that they have my LMP as 7/13, but it was 7/14. According to due date calculators and baby tickers, that makes me 8w6d due on April 20. Whatever. I like changing the number on Mondays, so I'll just stick with it until someone tells me otherwise. Maybe they get a little more specific when they know the exact moment of conception.

I've been reading some good pregnancy books. I recommend the Mayo Clinic Guide to a Healthy Pregnancy. It's way less "here's what might go wrong this month" oriented than WTEWYE. I also like The Pregnancy Journal because it goes day by day and has room to write and take notes. The problem I have with both of these books is that I can't read them and believe them. I'm having the hardest time accepting that all is well. I read everything as, "well, that might be happening, but maybe not." You would think after 2 positive ultrasounds that my mind would be eased, but no. And now I seriously doubt that the third u/s this week will help either. I can't imagine how insane I'm going to go after this week. I won't have another u/s until sometime between 18-22 weeks. How will I know everything is ok?? If only I could just relax and believe this will last.

And now, updated symptoms.

Current cravings: Apples and caramel sauce (but maybe just cause it's almost fall)

Current energy level: Fairly fatigued, but better than last week

Current appetite: Let's just say I'm eating a lot more than normal

Current mood: Cautiously optimistic, mixed with occasionally very teary

Current weight: 113 (this wasn't taken in the morning though, I don't think I gained 3 pounds in a week)

Nausea?: Nope

Other random observations: I sometimes get dizzy when standing after sitting for a while, my hair is getting all greasy despite daily shampooing (gross), I have frequent twinges and pulling sensations when moving (which I've read is normal so I'm trying to ignore them), and I still have not managed to sleep through the night without waking up to pee.

I'll post a belly photo soon (I need Brian's help and he's not home yet). Still not much to see, but I think it's gonna start soon so I may as well have a baseline.